I dunno why, but I have contimplated suicide. My own emotional irregularities, how were all suffering for what feels like nothing, and why I still am alive.
Part of me fears what's after death, if we get our own personal heaven or hell, or if it's just a blank space with nothing, or if we are reincarnated. My personal hell is just the empty nothing. All alone, not even a voice to help or speak to.
It honestly feels like I'm suffering for nothing. Like all of this is for no reward gained and I just return to the earth...
If I knew what was beyond death I might've already acted up on it sooner, and I keep thinking of that poem my grandma told me.
"Take your flight,
And erase your light,
To a place where you will be free,
To a place where you can see,
To a place far beyond and above,
To a place where you will be loved"
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